We all have childhood heroes.
Some are real, others imaginary, but they all mean something to us. Growing up, we looked up to these people. They brought us comfort, protection, and sometimes fought our battles for us. When did last think of one of your heroes? Was it when you finally “grew up”? Or when you became someone’s hero? But, could it have been when the last of them died?
That was me.
This past November, I heard on the news that my last childhood hero had passed away, due to complications from liver cancer. I sat down and cried, thinking “Oh my gosh, that’s it. My last link to childhood is gone. Does this mean I have to grow up now?” When did this happen? This ‘Growing Up”? The last I remembered, I was counting the days until I turned 21 so I could buy beer. Now, I’m forty, and its time to grow up?
Yes, no, maybe so.
But think about it, way back when. Who were your heroes? How did they mold you, change you, shape you? We may think they didn’t, but they did. And we’ll carry a small piece of them around with us forever.
Who were yours? How many did you have? Do you even remember who they were? I do, and I still carry some of the scars to this day.
My first hero was my Paw-Paw, and in my eyes the man could do no wrong. I don’t look like him, but we were just alike in other ways. We both liked to read, see how things worked, fight, fly, love, laugh and just enjoy life. I have always loved being told I was like him. He was the greatest man I ever knew, but I only knew him for four years. The stories I was told about him became my memories.
But, he also had a darker side. He was a recovering alcoholic, and he had a temper. I only heard the good stories growing up, and didn’t hear the bad ones until I was older. It put him into perspective. He was human after all, but I’ll always remember him as larger than life.
The next one was the Duke himself. John Wayne. Through him I thought there was nothing I couldn’t do. Many Saturday afternoons my butt was in front the TV watching Channel 17′s “John Wayne Theater.” When my friends and I would play, it was “Alamo”, or “Green Beret”, or “Cattle Drive”.
Let’s be honest, though. What guy didn’t look up to the Duke? He was the definition of an American man. The strong, silent type, who fears nothing and could do anything. We forget that his real name was Marion Morrison, and he was an actor. He died when I was eleven, and movies have never been the same.
The last one was Evel Kenivel. Man, I still have some scars from trying to emulate him. He was fearless. There was nothing he wouldn’t jump: fountains, buses, canyons, lakes of fire, even the Moon on his Rocket Cycle. Can anything stop him?
Yep, we did.
We wanted bigger, better, more badass. “Jump the Snake River, dude. It won’t hurt one bit!” Well, us that is. In the end, we called him a coward because he finally said “enough!” We thought we wasn’t human, but he was. And because of that humanity, he slowly faded from view.
Do y’all see the point I’m getting to? Even though every hero I had is a superman on one side, the other side shows they are just that: a MAN. Being mortal doesn’t change the fact that these men were my heroes, it makes me love them more.
One day we just may be heroes to the next generation, and how would you really want them to remember you? As a legend, or as a man?
Me? You can keep your legends and your immortality. I want my two boys to remember ME, faults and all.